I am working on my first sober night. I feel ok. I am battling depression, too. So, yay. My two-year old lizard brain is flipping the channel back and forth between pouting to raging. I want to be able to drink like a normal person. I want to believe that people can overcome addiction, that… Continue reading Reasons
Welp, here I am again. I tried to moderate my drinking after almost 2 years of sobriety. It didn’t work. I almost died. Wish me luck on maintaining my sobriety this time around.
Originally posted on A Bifurcated Life:
Saw this one online and just loved it. For my wife and I. Our first date movie.
Originally posted on A Bifurcated Life:
It’s been less than a week since I was released from the psychiatric ward of our local hospital. It feels like it was yesterday and at the same time a lifetime ago. I was admitted on 10/1 for a severe manic episode – voluntary admittance. Also 10/1 is my…
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Dear Sparkly Sober Boots, You make me smile. You replace my not-so-sober boots, which have been unceremoniously deep sixed. I promise you will never be an accessory to my late night drunk driving escapades. I promise you will be never be party to drunken stumbling around the yard or the neighborhood. Drunken, irrational tears will… Continue reading Sparkly Sober Boots
1. Hangover free mornings. I love being able to focus and be present for my family in the morning. Last year, I was late to work almost every single day. This year, I have been very slightly late (due to last minute kid drop-off logistics) twice. Boo-YAH! 2. Reading. I have a literature degree and… Continue reading 10 Gifts of Sobriety
When I was 19, I fell in love with a man named Brian. I was utterly, hopelessly, disgustingly in LOVE in a way only a 19 year-old can be in love. He was remarkably flawed. He was a 26 year-old, follically challenged restaurant manager who lived with his mom and yet, I utterly worshipped him.… Continue reading Six months
Well, 100 days (and my 38th birthday) came and went (see my pretty 100 day ring?) What have I learned in 106 days? I am an alcoholic – no doubt about it. My denial was a sovereign nation unto itself. There is no romanticizing: maybe I wasn’t that bad, perhaps I could moderate, one drink won’t… Continue reading 106 Days
It is an amazing day to be present in this beautiful world. Namaste.
The slight pop and scrape of the cork, the carmel colored elixir tumbling over thin cubes of ice I could jump in to that glass tonight never to ever return never to ever return This week was difficult but there were more victories than defeats. Work got better. Our new schedule is working. I managed to… Continue reading Things I would never do…
When I was a 17 year-old baby, feminist wannabe, I would take black eyeliner and scrawl words like, ‘slut,’ ‘bitch’ and ‘whore’ on my arms and (if I was feeling really brave) my legs. I would also pair baby doll dresses with ripped tights and knock-off Docs. It was the 90’s and I was playing… Continue reading Black Eyeliner vs Sharpies
At the end (god, I hope it was the end) of my drinking, I developed a peculiar physical ailment. After I had had a few (daily) I often would lose my ability to literally grip things. At least twice a week, I would spill my beer, wine or bourbon (gasp!) on some unlucky piece of… Continue reading Holding on and letting go
I feel terribly guilty. I have been reading your wonderful blog posts and comments but I have been in the trenches and too exhausted to write anything meaningful here. I am adjusting to being back in my classroom and I am beginning to feel more human at the end of each day. Many wonderful, frightening… Continue reading Hello!
This is a truly inspirational video.
Back to work this week. Cognitively, I am at a very, “fire bad, tree pretty” place, at the moment. I will write more later. Best Fishes, MJ
She is awesome and scares the shit out me of a little bit, which is exactly what I need. Thankfully for her, I am not in need of a mother but I still couldn’t help but think about it as I asked her. Now on to my homework.
(Part 1 of this was posted on the BFB FB page, as well. Sorry if it is redundant). Part One, 6PM: Holy hell!!! Today was ROUGH. I got voicemail from my grandmother at work in which she demanded that I come to the nursing home right away so we could talk about “things.” I left… Continue reading A Veritable Shit Show of a Day
Originally posted on My journey, from wine lover to sober and happy… :
In recent years there has been a notable rise of the Soberista, and I’m not just talking about Soberistas.com. Numerous celebrities have opened up about their decision to become non-drinkers and various media worldwide have picked up on the early indications of a…